When I ran my first 100-mile race, I fell in love with the distance and for a few years, it was wonderful. I'd found my "home."
Then suddenly, I started quitting every other 100—tough ones like Leadville and "easier" ones like Umstead. The pattern was devastating and confusing. Why?
I only had one clue: my body wasn't the problem. My mind was.
I had to fix it. I wasn't giving up this thing I'd fallen in love with, so I began a decades-long quest to understand the mental game of ultrarunning. But there wasn't anything out there on the mental side of the sport. "Mindset" wasn't even a word yet.
So I found my own way again. I applied life coaching, psychology, and causal analysis from my engineering day job to ultrarunning—breaking down what was actually happening to capable runners like me who had done the training, had the fitness, but underperformed or gave up when we didn't need to.
This pioneering approach led me to develop completely new ways to understand and solve mental performance blocks. What I discovered changed everything—not just for my own racing, but for how we can approach the mental side of ultrarunning entirely.